TIM XU
idealist. intellectual. dreamer. thinker. creator.HELLO
I am, at heart, a dabbler. I'm an economics student at Yale University, and I'm fascinated by the world and its complexity. This is my life.SummertimeJun 21
Well, now that it’s officially summer, I figured it’d be a good time to start posting on the blog again. A lot has happened since I got back from Mexico three months ago; I guess I’ll give it a cursory overview.
April was a roller coaster of fun. I got close with a couple of good friends, and there was just a lot of hanging out. Freshman Olympics and Spring Fling were two fantastic days – the month went by faster than I wanted it to. But by the end of the month, finals had begun and I basically moved to Bass Library. I was in there at least 12 hours a day, if not more, but I did do well on my exams. All the hard work definitely saved my grade in quite a few classes. And just like that, in the proverbial blink of an eye, my freshman year at Yale was over. It’s been over a month since I left school, yet sometimes I still wonder where freshman year disappeared off to. It’s incredible that it’s over. I wish I could do it all again. But I won’t go on a nostalgic trip now; I’ll save that one for when I actually remember freshman year as a tangible block of time, rather than the blur it is now.
The latter half of May represented the beginning of my summer. Moving out was a pain and leaving Yale was tough, but it was definitely a great change of pace to go from constantly worrying and studying to having precisely zero responsibility. I started working on marketing my summer job (Ivy Insiders) right away, working with my Co-Manager Jon on getting the groundwork laid for our SAT classes. I’ve got about twenty days left before those classes are due to start. I guess that means I have twenty more days until my relaxation ends. By mid-July, I’ll be teaching classes almost daily.
I’ve also got some web-designing to do over summer break. I already finished one, for the Davenport Pops Orchestra, and I’ve got two more to design and code. I actually spent a few days learning how to code layout via <div> and CSS rather than <table>. It’s truly revolutionized (and modernized) the way I do webdesign, and I’m pretty excited to get started on the next two.
But besides all that work, I’m just relaxing at home, watching movies, playing video games, playing basketball and frisbee, and really enjoying home before I go back to school in just over two months.
It’s summertime, and the livin’ is easy.
Memories of MexicoMar 16
So last week, I went to Mexico with the Yale Concert Band. We went to Mexico City, San Miguel de Allende, Real de Catorce, and Monterrey and played five concerts. Below is a recollection of this most memorable trip.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Let’s start this one at midnight. At that hour, Criterion Theaters began showing previews. By 3:30, I had taken in Watchmen. At 5:30, with the sun rising behind the veil of clouds, I picked up my laundry from the drier. At 7, I finished packing and went to bed.
We left New Haven at noon on a bus to JFK. I think I fell asleep. In any case, we got to JFK several hours ahead of our departure time, so we amused ourselves with crossword puzzles and other fun stuff.
Checking in at JFK.
The flight itself was pretty uneventful. By virtue of alphabetical seating and an empty last row, I was able to take 3 seats to myself, which was quite the luxury. At around 7:30, I saw Washington, D.C. from the sky. In Mexico, we relinquished our bags to various bellboys, not to see them until they sat outside of our doors at the hotel. We stayed at the Hotel Plaza Florencia, where Alan, my roommate, and I had a balcony with a view of several night clubs and a giant poster advertising “Los Monologos de la Vagina.” Cute.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
There was no concert that night, so it was a day of tourist activities. We went to Teotihuacán and saw its gigantic pyramids. The city is a couple thousand feet above sea level, so climbing the (really steep) stairs up the pyramids was an adventure. But we made a human Y on the Pyramid of the Moon and we hung out and made a human pyramid on top of the Pyramid of the Sun. We also got our introduction to haggling with the somewhat English-speaking peddlers and shopkeepers.
The view from the Pyramid of the Moon. You can see the sun pyramid to the left.
Our human ‘Y’ on the moon pyramid.
We left Teotihuacán and headed to lunch at a buffet-style restaurant. The food was spicy (predictably) but not too terrible. I tried out cactus, which wasn’t bad at all. We were entertained by our first mariachi band and some traditional Aztec dancers and drummers. After lunch, we went to a crafts warehouse, which happened to be on the same street as a Goth Market. Needless to say, there was a continuous stream of Mexican Goths walking past our buses.
It was still mid-afternoon when we returned to the hotel, so I joined a group and wandered around the immediate vicinity of our hotel. We found a pedestrian-only business area, where we saw a McDonald’s, a Burger King, a Popeyes, a KFC, a Starbucks, and a sex toy store in close proximity.
Dinner was at a really nice restaurant with (yet another) mariachi band, singers, dancers, and alcoholic beverages as the set drink when we sat down. Within hours, people were dancing to the Mexican beat along with the dancers on stage. We did our best interpretation of their style.
The traditional dancers at dinner.
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August RhythmsFeb 24
The following is my finished essay for English 120: Reading & Writing the Modern Essay with Professor Ariel Watson. This particular unit is entitled “Writing about Place.”
Stripes and numbers, forests and lakes, long days and restless nights – the memories remain crisp. I remember the first time I stepped off of the bus at Fairview Lakes YMCA, up in the wilderness of northwest New Jersey. It was the August of 2004 and, fresh out of middle school, I had packed myself off to a weeklong band camp before my first marching band season. I had spent the previous weeks trying, and often struggling, to memorize the music, and now it was time to put those notes on the field.
There was a solitary map of the camp standing in the shifting shade of tall trees, framed by the sun-speckled ripples of the lake. I stood beside it quietly and watched as the other seventy members filed off the bus. I had seen their faces before, but they weren’t familiar. Many chattered excitedly – this was not their first band camp – while others, like me, stood sheepishly off to the side, uninvolved, unknowing, our hands in our pockets. Soon, I was walking up the gravel path to the cabins amidst the billowing dust and the cacophony of crunches that naturally accompany hundreds of footsteps. Insects and birds added their melodies to a raw, rhythmic soundscape so starkly different from the constant hum of suburbia. The loose canopy of leaves glowed in the midday sun, casting the rocks and fallen branches in an otherworldly green. This was the wilderness.
The cabins themselves were dark and humid. A single bulb in the middle of the room flickered slowly to life, illuminating ten blue mattresses in five bunks arranged along the sides of the room. There were small windows above each of the mattresses, letting in enough light to reflect off the dust particles, floating like snowflakes. I climbed up the dusty ladder to my bunk, spread out my sleeping bag, and sat at the edge, swinging my feet and chatting excitedly with my cabin-mates. We spent the afternoon exploring the cabin. To us, it was a novelty – even the dullest of details sprang to life. We opened toilet stalls, peered into the poorly lit shower, and fought over the cubbies that separated each bunk.
The call to dinner took us back down the gravel path to the mess hall, where we were introduced to its unfamiliar mustard-yellow floor tiles, pale orange walls, and chipped wooden tables. The spattering clanks of plastic and the chatter of a dozen simultaneous conversations soon filled the room as everyone grabbed a cup. A parade of camp workers brought out one steaming pan of food after another, and the drum major called the seniors to eat. We freshmen could only sip on our drinks – bug juice, the juniors called it – while we waited for our turn.
The next day was our first on the field. There was no shade here from the merciless August sun. My sweaty palms clutched my instrument loosely as we learned how to march. The sun and the swarms of mosquitoes crushed my expectations, and the romance of band camp soon disappeared. There was nothing fun about wiping beads of sweat with an arm already drenched in it. There was nothing exciting about forgetting to stop on the 40-yard-line the third time in a row. And there was definitely nothing romantic about the fourth “one more time” before a water break. Over the course of the week, we gained an intimate knowledge of that field. Its features are still familiar: the large patch of dirt by the left 20-yard-line, the baseball diamond in the back left corner, the shade of the two trees on the sideline that became the holy site for our water-break pilgrimages.
We spent our nights working on our music throughout the camp, divided into sections by instrument. My section chose a spot underneath a streetlight, facing the lake. Beyond the conical glow of the yellow light, the moon washed everything in pale blue. In that darkness, we played our music. We played to the invisible dragonflies that cut creases into the lake’s calm ripples, to the bats that flocked to thrown rocks, to the unseen singers of lonely chirps. We chased after the sheet music blown like falling leaves by a chance gust. We became brothers and sisters by laughing at each other’s jokes, by listening to the stories of bygone band camps, by playing our music in perfect unison.
Twelve months later, I returned. No longer a freshman, I stepped off the bus surrounded by my closest friends, all of us giddy with anticipation. Once again, we organized ourselves next to that map before heading up to the now-familiar cabins. Confident with experience, we didn’t stay in our cabins long. We threw a frisbee between and around other cabins. We helped unload the truck and deliver luggage to the freshmen, who sat on their bunks, swinging their legs.
The week progressed much differently this time around. No longer constrained by the novelty of the experience, we enjoyed the week more viscerally. The field faded in importance, and we approached our rehearsal time with ease rather than struggle. Instead, we looked forward to and relished our breaks, eagerly exploring the recreation the camp provided.
On the third day, we took a canoe and rowed it out to the middle of the lake. There was something soothing about the rhythmic swings and surges that accompanied each stroke of the oar, something relaxing about the smooth curls of waves that radiated from the tip of the canoe as we slid through the water. In the chaotic symphony of splashes and laughter we didn’t notice that we had entered perfect serenity. There was something tangibly peaceful about bobbing up and down in the middle of the lake, surrounded by nothing but water for a hundred yards each way. The same soft breeze that created the ripples in the water caressed our skin, and the same sun that lit the water’s crests in a warm yellow flame warmed our bodies. I leaned back and lied on the bottom of the canoe, ignoring the puddle of cold water that seeped through my t-shirt. I squinted and followed the gradient of the sky from clear blue to blinding white. A hawk crossed under the sun. I followed its graceful glide until it disappeared into the thick forest, then counted the trees into the hills until they became a messy blob of green and brown. An hour later, we slowly rowed back to the shore and went back to work.
Before I returned for my third year at camp, I was chosen as the drum major. Once again, my experience at camp was defined by rehearsal and the time I spent in front of my peers. I no longer noticed the cool wind ruffling the leaves or the midnight whisper of a nocturnal animal outside my window at night. The landscape had shifted – instead of the green and brown of trees and hills or the blue and white of the lake, I saw faces on the field. I watched them march, the uneven lines connecting their bodies shifting from squares to triangles to sliding slants across the stark, white lines. During breaks, I sat on my podium, observing their interactions, their laughter, their frolicking. The shade of those two trees that once shielded me from the sun became lines on the ground, outlining the group of kids seeking solace from that same overbearing sun. Their arms and legs crossed and touched to create a lattice, blending to form a remarkably new landscape.
And then it was over. I heard the last thud of a piece of thrown luggage as it hit the pile in the truck, the crash of the back door as it locked into place, and the rumble of the busses as they rolled down the driveway to pick us up. I also heard things fade: the blare of a trombone’s note piercing into the distance, the shrill of a flute rising into the air, the groove of several dozen pairs of feet shifting in unison. Everywhere I went that last day, things seemed still. In the cabins, I listened for the shuffle of kids jumping off their mattresses, but only saw freshly mopped floors and bare mattresses. In the mess hall, I listened for people clanking their plastic cups as they waited for a meal, but only saw chairs stacked neatly on the tables. At the lake, I listened for the smooth sound of four canoes splashing through the lake, but only saw the gleam of the setting sun slicing across the water. But when I listened to the doors of the bus close, and when I felt the wheels shake over uneven pavement as it pulled away from band camp, I only saw an empty camp and a lonely map, growing ever smaller.
My New American IdentityFeb 19
The following is my finished essay for English 120: Reading & Writing the Modern Essay with Professor Ariel Watson. This particular unit is entitled “From Personal Experience.”
On the first day of pre-school, my new teacher asked me for my name, so I replied, “I want to go to the bathroom.” It was my first day of pre-school; I was four, and I didn’t have a lick of English in my head. Earlier in the morning, my parents had given me strict directions: don’t eat anything that doesn’t smell right; don’t take food from other children without asking; if you need to pee, tell the teacher “I want to go to the bathroom”; eat all the food in your lunchbox. And so, after my teacher asked for my name, I decided to reply with the phrase my parents had taught me in the morning. My teacher, my parents, and, I’m sure, many of the other children laughed. I did not. But I stood silent not because of embarrassment, but because of ignorance. Not only was I incapable of understanding my teacher’s question, I did not even truly comprehend the words that came out of my own mouth. Fortunately, there were no major consequences from my mistake – I did not become “I-want-to-go-to-the-bathroom” for the rest of the year. The teacher already knew my real name. In fact, she gave me my name.
In the most literal sense, my pre-school teacher forged my identity as an American. My parents had realized that my given Chinese name could be a liability for my social success and so, when they sat down with my pre-school teacher in the weeks prior to that first day, they asked her for ideas. They gave her my Chinese name, and she picked an English name that sounded closest to it. “Tim,” she told them. For the next fourteen years (and counting), I would answer to that name. My birth certificate reads ‘Xu Tianji,’ born in Xi’an, China, but since I was four, I have answered, as an American, to the name she gave me.
When I was two, my parents left me in the care of my mother’s mother in China while they established a new life in America. While I ran about in cloth diapers on dusty streets, they enjoyed their first meal at McDonald’s: a sixty-nine cent hamburger that they shared because it was all they could afford. I followed their trail a year later, boarding a fifteen-hour flight from Beijing to Detroit International Airport.
It had been a full year since I’d last seen my parents. Yet when my father first picked me up off the ground, I whispered into his ear, “Where’s our car?” Over the course of our overseas telephone conversations, I discovered that my parents had purchased a new vehicle. This was quite the luxury, one nearly impossible to attain for the average Chinese family at the time. Naturally, it trumped all else in my toddler mind. I was not interested in the sentimentality or emotion of the moment. Something far more important and exciting had captured my mind. During the drive home, I attached my face to the window, watching the hundreds of cars and their shining, spinning rims in awe. At one point, we stopped at a traffic light next to a large tractor-trailer. Moments later, I wondered why we were moving backwards.
In those early days, our apartment was on the fourteenth floor of a high-rise in the center of Detroit’s Wayne State University, where my parents did their graduate studies. I spent the first weeks at home with my grandmother, playing inside the apartment or outside in the playground. We were quite the pair, with no more than a dozen English phrases between us. But we quickly mastered the essential art of hand gestures and awkward grunts, our only method of communicating with the neighborhood children and their mothers. It must have been how the cavemen conversed tens of thousands of years ago. I would wave to say hello, then point from myself to the swing a few times, as if to ask, “Can I please use that swing you’re sitting on?” Finally, with a handful of nods or shakes of the head, I would either get onto my newly won swing, or storm away from the stubborn child who had refused my negotiations.
Of course, it did not always work. My parents often socialized with their fellow students, two of whom also had children of their own. They were older than me, the two girls, and they, too, had recently moved from China. Without a language barrier, we quickly became friends. However, they moved to America several years before I did, and thus already spoke English well. They readily used this advantage against me. Whenever they wished to ignore or exclude me, they did. I could only complain to my grandmother, “They’re speaking English again!”
A month later, the first day of pre-school came and passed. I learned English quickly – with no one there who could speak Chinese, pre-school forced me to speak English. By that Christmas, I was speaking in full phrases. By the next one, I was fluent. The girls could no longer ignore me by merely speaking English (though I quickly discovered that locked doors can be just as potent). I did not have to rely on wild hand motions – negotiating swings and see-saws became a matter of voice.
I could not have understood the significance of those first few months in America. In April of 1994, I was Xu Tianji, a Chinese toddler waddling down the dirty, cramped streets of Xi’an in hand-sewn pants and paper-thin shoes. By the time 1995 dawned, I was Tim Xu, an American boy running through the wide, grassy lawns of Detroit in cheap pants and sneakers. Perhaps that lack of understanding was exactly what enabled me to become so unmistakably American as quickly as I did. With an American name given to me by an American woman in an American city, I did not find my new identity – I was given it. I became Tim Xu not because I wanted to, but because my pre-school teacher thought it sounded like the name inscribed on my birth certificate.
I was too young to understand the remarkable nature of those opening months in America. I had passed through the ugly cruelties of adjusting to a new country relatively unscathed. Unlike my parents, I did not have to worry about my professional reputation, about creating a financial base from scratch, about starting over as an adult. My age, then, was my crutch, my get-out-of-hardship-free card. By the time I started kindergarten, I was more American than my parents would ever be. I had forgotten what life was like in China. Although I would not legally become an American citizen for another eight years, I was no longer a true Chinese citizen the day I stepped foot on American soil. At the age of three, I held only the most tenuous connection to a national identity. It was in the hurried process of learning English, of adapting to America’s culture that I assumed its identity and melted into its churning pot.
When I walked into that classroom for the first day of pre-school, I didn’t realize that all the other children looked different. Some were white, others black, but none were yellow-skinned. I didn’t realize the true difficulty of becoming fluent in a completely foreign language. And I certainly didn’t realize that this new ‘me’ could bring me so far.
QuotesFeb 05
A couple of months ago, I read a book called “Letters to my Son” by Kent Nerburn. I pulled a group of quotes from the book that especially hit me deep inside, which I rediscovered when I was searching for something else in Gmail. Here they are, with some thoughts attached to some of them.
“Strength based in force is a strength people fear. Strength based in love is a strength people crave.” — Strength based on love is stronger than any force possible. Though I wonder: how does one know that his strength is based in love rather than force? Is it the strength of a parent while his child is sick? Is it the strength of a man or woman who sacrifices everything for his family?
“Measure your greatness by the length of your reach, but also by the gentleness of your touch. For now, the world needs hands that love, not hands that conquer. Let your hands be among them.” — This sounds like something Barack Obama would say.
“Care for those around you. Look past differences. Their dreams are no less than yours, their choices in life no more easily made.” — I believe very strongly in this statement, although I may not always live by it. However, recognizing and embracing differences in opinion, differences in character in everyone is something worth striving for.
“Find the few pieces of your life that help you live. Value them for the way they help you give. Never forget that if you just accumulate possessions as the logical outcome of pursuing your desires, you will lose your wings to fly.”
“Remember that you can’t choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who seem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.” — Perhaps my favorite quote of all of these. There is so much depth in this one quote. The ideas: that love cannot be forced, that once you have it, you ought to share it.
“Money is nothing more than a commodity, an agreed-upon abstraction of exchange. It is the spirit of that exchange that animates money and gives it meaning. Great givers, rich and poor, use money to close doors between us all. Be a giver and a sharer. In some unexpected and unforeseeable fashion, all else will take care of itself.”
“The true measure of your education is not what you know, but how you share what you know with others.” — Truer words have never been said. I love to teach, and this is why.
“We have the power to create joy and happiness by our simplest acts of caring and compassion. We have the power to unlock the goodness in other people’s hearts by sharing the goodness in ours.” — Unfortunately, Former-President Bush did not get this message. Although it wouldn’t have worked, it certainly would have been better than his idea.
“The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become longtime friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other’s laughs, passions, sadnesses, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. This is ideal but not often possible. You need to look beyond your sexual attraction for other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each other’s company over the long term. If your laughter together is good and healthy, then you will have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.”
“Choose a vocation, not a job, and you will be at peace. Take a job instead of finding a vocation, and you’ll be waiting for retirement. We all owe ourselves better than that.”
“Though there are many good reasons to fight, there are no good fights. Someone always gets harmed, and when one person is harmed we are all diminished. Rise above your passions and fears and you will be able to avoid most fights.” — I’m not sure my predilection for avoiding conflict is based on such poetic terms, but it’s a good sentiment.
“Death should hold no terror, and we should embrace our dying as a momentary passage into the great harmony of eternity.”
Male or female, all of you should definitely look into reading this book. It’s got so many nuggets of great wisdom about growing up and being a truly good person.
SettledJan 31
Well, I think I’m pretty much settled into this new semester. It’s definitely pleasant to have this happen three weeks into the semester. I’m quite busy, with five classes and a lab, along with a plethora of organizations and clubs and the job, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I still have time to be (somewhat) social, to get my work done, and to relax and watch a bit of TV when I need to take a break.
I’m quite happy with life at this point. I’m rarely bored, and there’s a good mix of fun and work. Of course, stress happens occasionally, but what’s life without excitement?
In other news, happy birthday to Daniel and Tasia! I hope you guys enjoyed the party (and the gigantic card) last night. It was certainly fun to plan. Also, my Obama HOPE poster came in! It’s quite the backdrop to my workspace. If I ever need inspiration while banging out the last hundred words of a paper, I just have to look up!
And yes, I am working on a paper as I write this post. I’m just taking a break! Seriously!
Class schedule – Spring 2009Jan 12
Here’s my tentative schedule for this semester, pending a few lotteries and whatnot. I’ll know what it is for good by the end of the week.
Windows 7Jan 09
Well, I’m pleasantly surprised. I’ve been using Windows 7 Beta 1 for a couple of days now, and I have to say – Microsoft has redeemed itself after Vista. The new features aren’t superfluous, and are really quite useful. Despite the new taskbar being (unsurprisingly) very similar to Mac OS X’s dock, it still works well, and is aesthetically pleasing.
The intangibles are all there. Boot times, even on my MacBook, are nearly as fast as Leopard. Within the OS, everything is quite snappy. There really isn’t any of the sluggishness I experienced in Vista. When I open Chrome, it opens. It’s refreshing, especially when compared to Vista. Also, I look at the system resources, and Windows 7 is buzzing along at a mere 25% of RAM used, with a browser and IM client open. That’s really impressive. Altogether, it’s really a huge step in the right direction for Microsoft, and I really hope they can carry this success through to release. 90% of the world uses Windows, and it’s about time that Microsoft gave them something that works more often than not.
That said, I haven’t tried going through some of Windows’ usual pains. Networking, on the surface at least, has improved, with the wireless icon in the taskbar now no longer completely useless. Compatibility with hardware I also have not tried, but Vista SP1 seemed to have fixed many of the issues, and I expect that Windows 7 has kept that up.
For those of you who haven’t really looked at Windows 7 yet, here’s a run-down of some of the new features.
Semester 1: a RequiemDec 18
They say college is a period of self-discovery and self-realization, of epiphanies and maturation. Yet yesterday morning, at approximately 10:45 AM, when I handed in my Chemistry final and ended my first semester at Yale, I felt no different than I had the day I first walked through Phelps Gate. But I soon realized that, though I felt unchanged, the first eighth of my undergraduate experience left an indelible mark upon me.
My first steps on this adventure were rather timid. Awkward hellos and hi-my-name-is-Tim’s were the theme of the morning when the FPC freshman gathered in Old Campus for the first time. Yet by the time we returned to Yale two days later, I had friends, a few of whom I anticipate will be familiar faces for the rest of my life.
To say the least, FPC gave me the confidence to introduce myself and to smile. And, of course to introduce myself again, after I had forgotten his name. The two days I spent at Camp Awosting truly represented a great prelude to Yale and its experience. But I cannot forget its most important lesson: that my roommate from Texas did not have a southern accent – and that this was normal for Yalies from the south.
The first month of school was, and, in my mind, still is a blur. I met people from different organizations and through different people. I spent time with some friends, then promptly abandoned them for other friends. It was truly a strange period of unrest during which I never stopped to think. I plowed forward, forgoing books for friendship, sleep for fun. My closest friends remained my closest friends, yet everyone else shuffled around me. I had forsaken my friends back home, caught up in this whirlwind of novelty and excitement. Yet, as fate would have it, all the disparate threads I sewed in that first month would interweave in short order.
If I had to pick the single moment that turned the page, it was a late night in early October. Myself and a few friends watched “Forgetting Sarah Marshall” and then we talked. And talked. And after that, I settled. I found a group of friends with whom I could laugh, with whom I could be stupid, and with whom I could just relax and have fun. Then time began to fly.
At this point, I reconnected with high school friends, and the semester continued at a rapid clip. Looking back, all I remember is fun moments, great conversations, and, unfortunately, several late nights at the library. Nonetheless, I was comfortable and happy.
Of course, over the semester, there were a few down moments. I am certainly not proud of a few decisions, yet I realize that each one, each wrong decision, is but another block to build upon. And I don’t regret those moments. I don’t regret, for example, the nights I spent hanging out with friends instead of studying for that midterm. I don’t regret any decision that turned out poorly in the rear-view mirror because I learned.
And so here I am, a semester done. From FPC to late-night talks to partying to turning eighteen to The (freezing) Game to reading week and finals – it’s been a long three-and-half-months, yet I feel like it’s gone by in the blink of an eye. I’ve learned about myself, and learned about what’s truly important to me, but fundamentally, I am the same curious little boy I was before this all began.
So, past all the self-discovery, all the lessons learned and mistakes made, I can only count one real epiphany. The primary reason why I love Yale so much is not the history or the grandeur, not the beautiful campus or the wonderful residential colleges; no, the first and foremost reason why I love Yale so much is the friends and peers that embody its ideals, and who have made this first semester one of the best three-and-a-half months of my life.
Here’s to three-and-a-half more years.
A new songDec 03
I’ve been working on this for a few days…this is for the friends back home.
Bound by Time
Well there’s a voice outside
that sings a sad, lonely song
I never thought that I
would ever sing, sing along
Its tune is familiar
I know its melody
With every passing year
it beats inside of me
These are the words that I couldn’t say
This is our static
moment in time
I found a new life
And when the sky lights
our memories on fire
We’ll watch the sun rise
So this is our last
embrace with the past
We’re not looking back
We’re bound by time…
Bound by time.
Those were happy days
times of laughs, joy and tears
But now the echoes fade
replaced with this silence here
I’m looking ahead but I
can’t see through the haze
And this is the last goodbye
before we part our ways
